Dancing Through Life

The Great and Wonderful Aunt Anne came through last week.  It was wonderful to get to visit with her, although we did not get to ride together after all. (Turns out, she didn’t bring her bikes on this trip!)  We cooked together, their dog Chucho and A’Kos played together…or at least Chucho tolerated A’Kos trying to play.  Meeting Uncle Ken was great, too.  He’s such a perfect fit for Anne, and I could wish he’d been in the family all along.

We talked about the kids, and she encouraged me to get in touch with my cousins about their education.  Her son Brenton works at Quail Springs, a “learning oasis” that teaches all things permaculture and living off the land.  This is right up the girls’ alley; they both would love to be rangers or something similar when they grow up, living off the land instead of working in the city.  Aunt Anne suggested seeing if we could set up work/studies for them or something similar to help them get started.  Her other son Kenyon runs a Montessori school in North Carolina with his wife Mary Helen.  I’ve been looking more and more into Montessori techniques of self-directed learning for Kender, since he flat refuses to participate in anything that I lead him to.  The most I can do is set up an activity and guide him to it.  My hope is that he will be able to offer some advice on how best to set up our house for this considering our unique situation and Kender’s unique challenges.

While she was here and after she left, my aunt remarked, as everybody does, on how she doesn’t know how I do it.  How I cook for so many people every day, how I stay so calm with all the drama and crises that are constantly going on.  I’m still not sure how “safe” she would be to say this to, but as I’ve thought about that today, I have to get mushy and say that Loki and the Lord and Lady have played a huge part in this.  After Kender was born, as crisis after crisis emerged with him in slow motion, I really lost my ability to keep going.  Where I used to dance through the day (or at least my memory says I did), I came to a crawl.  Working with my church, working with Loki, and now studying at seminary have really helped me to get a better handle on my life.  Loki in particular has really changed how I view things and allowed me to see my place in the world as Edgewalker, allowing me to smile and laugh so much more than I ever did before.

At seminary, we do devotions every morning together.  One of the things we do during devotions is to state an intention for the day.  We each state our own, the only real rule being that it must be positive, no negatives anywhere.  One of my favorite intentions to build on has been, “I am strong and confident, swift and competent, leaving completed tasks in my dust as I dance through my day.”  It sums up what I want to accomplish and how I want to feel about it all together.

Speaking of dancing, I am going to take up the 90-Day Belly Dance Challenge starting tomorrow.  I seem to have much trouble doing anything outside this year, even cycling.  I don’t want to leave the house and spend the time on the intense exercise when I really need to be working with the kids and school and whatnot.  So I’m going to give this a try, working with whatever I can find on the Roku.  Reports to come weekly, so poke me if I forget!

Published by solinox

I am a Wiccan priestess, a libertarian mother of triplets plus three, a wife and homeschooling mom to blind and autistic children, a fiber artist, and a Jane of All Trades, always learning and seeking to help.

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