God has a plan. Pick your god, they all seem to have a plan. Or at least that’s what people tell me. The message comes in many flavors. Some of them I have expressed a personal belief in myself. Right now, I am struggling with reconciling all these messages of planning, safety, and purpose with […]
Category Archives: Know Thyself
Ideal Body Weight
I will open this by saying that I’ve been told I was overweight or obese my entire life. My whole life, all the way back to junior high. My mom had me in Weight Watchers and special exercise programs and therapy programs for fat kids as a teenager. I learned all the height and weight […]
Learning How to Run
I first learned how to run just a few years ago. I have never been an athletic person. I was always the musician, the geek, the bookworm. What got me started on running was seeing an old high school friend take up the challenge via the Couch to 5K (C25K) training method. She also was […]
Meltdowns
I’ve been saving up blog posts for a bit, making note of things I want to say but not finding the time to write the posts. This one caught me at just the right time, though. This video recently came across my feed. It shows an adult woman having a meltdown, and her service dog […]
I Can’t See
I am autistic. To be more specific, I am a very high functioning autistic, which means that I don’t look autistic. I pass for neurotypical most of the time. The passing makes it hard to cope with, though. Sometimes I wish there were some visible symbol I could have so that people would know what […]
If Today Was Your Last Day
If I only had one day left to live, I would spend it relaxing with my family. I would spend some of my savings to buy a maid service to come in and clean my house so I would have a clean, dust- and mold-free place to spend my last day. I would do something […]
Mabon Reflections
Today is Mabon, the celebration of the fall equinox in the Northern Hemisphere. The world sits at the balance between the summer half of the year and the winter. Now the days begin to grow shorter, the nights longer. Now we reap the fruits of the harvest, the corn and the wheat, the apples […]
Those Daily Devotions
Yesterday my teachers asked me how my daily devotions and my relationship with Loki were going. I never know how to answer open-ended questions like that on the spot, but they do make me think. I didn’t have anything resembling a daily devotional practice until last year, when I received my first degree and finally […]
I Want to Dance
As Tamara moves into her cheer career and I’ve been posting pictures and comments, one of the more frequent sentiments I’ve heard from my friends is along the lines of, “Imagine you involved with cheerleading! That’s so unlike you!” At first, I laughed along with them and agreed. And then I realized that was wrong. […]
The Little Ways We Lead Ourselves Astray
When I was growing up, I loved reading stories that had anything to do with babies and motherhood. I remember reading about the coming-of-age ritual of wearing your hair up in the Little House books, and wishing I had something like that to mark a transition for myself. I remember stories of girls who cared […]